I feel free but locked in LOVE. i cant stop thinking about my  BF. Its been a week and a few days  since i was kicked out. Good thing immediatly had a job that 'll pay for the rent. I went back to my Auntie's house, where i lived b4 i went to my BF. But this time i had to pay for rent since my auntie(the sis of my mom) lost her job and cant support me. My uncle said that i should pay cuz he doesnt want to support cuz he said im not his part of the family. We spoke about the payment the first day i came. I have my own room it was a mess. My BF dad didnt make me leave that same night that they wanted me kicked out, They just asked me to leave by the next day,  just for the info. So i went to my uncles house on sunday afternoon like at  4pm and the room was a mess. i took out all my old clothes and book and hecka junk to throw away. Some clothes i wanted to keep but like the color so i out it aside to dye black. I was looking 4 my walet 2 buy somthing and i thiought i left it @ my BF so i called him and his mom answered "bueno!" with his dad in the back saying that he doesnt want me calling all the  time cuz it's hella anoying then i told my BF my problem, and he didnt find it. then i found while talking to him and hung up cuz his dad really didnt want us to talk, just cuz he doesnt awant us to talk. then  i went to Walgreens which is so close now (yay!). but while i was walking to the store and back on the main street E14 about 5 time a different car with someone, wistled at me like i was prostitute and was calling me ( oh my god!) i was so pissed off of the world.

          later cleaning up the room i felt so lonely even though a guy i had a CRUSH on just started calling me ( my BF knows who he is and know i hav a crush on him) so i told the guy i have a crush on  everything that happened, he felt bad 4 me, he's sweet, he calling me just to say good night, he later stoped calling i think it was just while i was still depressed about getting kicked out (he was sweet). it just didnt feel the same.,usually it was noisy in the house with mexican music and A LOT of KIDS running everywhere. and at my house it was just the TV in my aunt's bedroom. I felt so lonely, i missed my Bf so much that i started crying all i wanted was to be with him. I was kinda not noticin gwhat i had when i was living with him, and told him that if i'd cheat on him it would only be with that guy or nobody! and i actually would have since he started calling  me and we were getting to know each other on the phone. I had crush on him since high school but i had a boy friend and he had a girlfriend. One time we spoke on the phone and he said he doesnt know if he really with his girlfriend, and that the relationship hasnt been doing good. and i was thinking it was my chance. But i just couldnt i think i was kicked out for this reason of not noticing what i got before i lose it. it just made me think that, were really meant to be with each other, cuz me being away from him made me think of him more of how much i love him. I love him so much. i still have a little crush on him but i know were better off as friend cuz he asked his girlfriend if there still together, you know what she did. so there still together oh well. Any ways i dont want there relation to be messed up by some one else, likewise with my relationship. I just cant stop thinking of him, ( oops i wasnt supposed to write this.

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